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Name: Amy
Country: United States
State: Indiana
Metro: Bloomington
Birthday: 6/30/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: sports- the big two- ultimate and basketball, friends, music, just about anything active!
Expertise: that's in the eyes of the beholder
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  godsgirlisfree
Member Since:
3/2/2005
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| i changed the colors! they look much better!
i realized something again the other day.... my mother is amazing! she may not go to church, or make a lot of money, she may have bad finances and a bad history with men.... but she desplays the fruit of the spirit better than 99% of the christians i know... every extra penny she has she gives to others, she cares about other people, even the mean ones, she's compassionate, loving, and merciful... i could go on and on... but my mother is one of my heroes!
and another thing... God's amazing! even when i'm in a bad mood or feeling impatient, he still finds a way to take over and shine threw me! and for those of you who know me... for God to help He's gotta be really strong to fight me first! lol... any way.. yeah!!!! | | |
| wow, these colors don't look good... i might change them... i think i want green maybe with pink.. hmmm, maybe!
so, i'm a work aholic, all i do is work, church and ultimate... that's it, i'm lame....
two of my close girlfriends are getting married this summer... and that's real cool, don't even wish i was also... marraige would be hard, sure it would be nice to have that security, knowing tis person is going to be with you forever, and love you with Christs love... but that's so hard to find. deep down i want to be married, more for the security, but finding a person that i would want to spend all that time with, there's the hard part. i enjoy being single... i don't have to answer to someone else, don't have to check in... if i want to go on a spontanious road trip with some friends then i can! i'm quite happy in my predicament! lol!!
i'm pretty sure that i'm going to europ next summer with my roomie.. 2 weeks! packpacking, no preplans, staying with strangers, skipping showers and the whole lot! i'm so excited!!!!
anyways... chess is over, i'm going to miss the kids... my cousens back in cali, and i'll drive his wife up to the airport sunday so she can join him... sad times! but we will all be together sometime or another!
alright, i would spell check this, because i know i misspelled a lot... but i don't really care, and our enternet might not last the extra minute! lol! okay, well... peace! | | |
| yeah, so i've been writting in myspace a lot, but here are my last few entrys:
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Monday, March 27, 2006
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God does talk to us
Current mood:  peaceful
so... lately i've really wanted to be done with my work here and be in heaven with my perfect God... not suicidle or anything like that... just really want to be in a perfect place, where things aren't so messed up...
well anyways, so today it was really funny cause i read 2 Cor. 5, that said: Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked, for while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened" "we are condifent, i say and would prefer to be away from the body and at homw with the Lord..." vr. 1-2, 8.... crazy how God DOES talk to us!!
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Sunday, March 26, 2006
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today was so good!
Current mood: joyful
salsa dancing was a lot of fun!!! i'm so bad though!
lunch was good! a little awkward... but you'll have that! it was great hanging with some of my good female friends! i've missed them over break. tonight was fun too. it was really nice hanging out with some new friends! and seeing one of my best friends- justin green (lol, knew you'd want to be mentioned)!!!!
hmmm.... lifes interesting... and i really like dressing up! and baking!!
so tonight i was called 'dangerous' because i'm a 'natural flirt'. okay, honestly, i saw the way that guy was looking at me... so i was trying to avoid him, and when he asked me to dance, i danced... was not trying to flirt one bit.... i was slightly insulted. i really am trying not to flirt and give off wrong signs... but it's part of my personality, i try but it's not like i can just turn it off... it's part of who i am... you don't like it then get over it,don't talk to me... whatever, just stop insulting me and exept me for who i am.
okay, so besides that little rant... life is so good! i love God... and honestly i miss Him a lot right now... so i'm getting off of this thing and going to hang with Him!! i highly recommend it!!
"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort." 2 Corninthians 1:3 | |
Friday, March 24, 2006
private conversations!!!!!!!!
Current mood:  okay
for those of you who still opened this even though it said 'private conversation' you are about to inter into my head. maybe it will scare you maybe encourage you... but i write this here, not for you, but for me to always remember what i know to be true! this is a privet conversation between me and God... only my side of it! lol
Dear God,
well, i'm sitting here, all by myself, and in a few hours i'll be surrounded by my good friends and acquaintances. but there's something inside of me that is dreading the evening. i'm excited to see everyone again, but.... i just don't know... i want more than casual, i just don't know how to have that... i know there are the few in my life that i concede close, and i talk to about anything and everything. but when things are really bad i don't want to bother them. i just don't know... ultimately you know what's in my heart, even if i don't understand. i don't understand why the tears came down. maybe it's because deep down i know i don't fully trust you. i know that i don't trust myself... i'll always mess things up. are these thought in my head lies from satan... they all seem so true, but it's so sad at the same time. i wish i knew what you are promising me. maybe a life of singleness... but if that's the case then wont you give me contentment? why do i even want to be with another person... i know people will always let me down, and only you will be there. You're so faithful! i want to be with you. i don't want to be down here anymore. the song says it so well... it's the very cry of my heart 'i want to go home, i'm tired of this place, and i want to go home... i thank you for all you've done... but i want to go home'. okay, well i know you want to use me down here, even if i don't know what for. so i'll stay, and i'll try really hard to be happy while i'm here. i just wish you would show me the big picture of my life. what do you want me for? what am i good for?? Lord, i want to follow you step by step, but your voice is so quite i can hardly hear it. my own thoughts are louder than you, and they confuses me... should i go right or left? i know you'll love me even if i go the wrong way... but it hurts both of us when i do that. i want to get it right the first time. i'm tired of learning the hard way, and i'm tired of these stupid emotions. you should make me into a robot. then i would never mess up! but then i probably would be any good for you either! quite a predicament! okay Lord, i'm turning all of this into a joke, but if i'm laughing then i'm not crying!... why are you showing me compassion... i feel like your only showing me the loving side of your fatherliness... i like it, but i feel like your going to start throwing things or yelling at me soon. it's so hard to think of you as good, because everything 'good' that i've experienced has been followed up by worse. still, i know your good. i've seen your goodness. how about that time you skillfully got me into basketball. that kept me in school long enough for me to move to indy. and giving me eric to hang out with for the year. he was such an encouragement... and he really help me out with problems i was struggling with. God, there are so many times you've showed your love to me... and i've turned away every time. it's like i think the old life is better than the one i have with you... even though that's been proven wrong so many times. o' God, there are so many things that i regret. so many things that i did, intentionally choosing then over you... i feel so bad for those. i don't expect everyone to except me with that stuff in my past, there have already been people who voiced there disapproval of me... and even with all of that you're here! You are so amazing! "My precious friend"! Lord, i can't repay you. but i want to try! i want to do whatever you want me to do! if it's going to the inner city, or jamaica, or even north korea... wither i'll be husband less, or friendless... even if i'm completely alone, i know you'll still be there with me. you, your spirit, and your son! it's so amazing to think... you're always holding me, i love the thought that the times i couldn't make it up the mountain myself, you carried me. i still got to see the beautiful sunset, even though i didn't have the will power to walk. hmmm... lifes crazy... i think i'm starting to feel content. things still bother me but for different reasons. for good reason! please, continue to make me who YOU want me to be, not who i want to be. give me the wisdom that comes from you! even if that means i loose the earthly, hindering wisdom! Lord, has much pain as i know it will bring... continue to break my heart with the things that break your heart! i want to see what you see, and feel what you feel! i want to be there for you like you are for me. i know it's not fully possible, but as much as i can do, i want to do it! Lord i love you so much. i know i could never say that to many time! you are my husband, and my maker, and my redeemer... you are my all in all... my everything! i love you so so much!
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| it hit me head on tonight.... I AM SOOOOO GLAD I'M BACK IN B-TOWN!!!!!!!
i love my church, i love the friends i have a church, i love our pastors (and how i can be friends with them)!!!!!!!!! i love my roommmates!!!!!! i love seeing my family, and knowing that they're only a few minets away, i love being back here!
i love the memories of highschool, my friends who put up with me through so much, my family who will always love me no matter what, and my God who i can't believe still wants to be with me!
i love life right now (even with a fever!)!!!!! | | |
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